Falling Out of Love
It is very easy for me to change my mind,
based on prevailing circumstances, so as to minimize exposure/vulnerability.
However, it appears He is always in love with me and all the junk I have
allowed into the room of my heart have blocked the ray of God's love from
illuminating my heart and thus, the warmth I have been accustomed to is
glaringly missing, hence, the gloom, depression, constant feeling of loneliness
and lone-ranger attitude while maintaining the outward appearance of keeping it
together all the while feeling like crap every day.
Someone said “loneliness is not a loss of
someone, but a loss of direction and vision for your life” I couldn't have put
it better myself, we are usually tunnel-vision-minded that we pay so much
attention to the physical that we ignore the most important and yet invisible
parts of our lives. A saying goes thus “the most important things in life are
free”, and while you may find reasons to dispute it, the fact remains, you can’t
see love, hope, joy, and the like physically, but you do feel their effects.
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